What's up with spooky peceptions
This Friday I had a great evening with an eclectic group I joined online. Diverse group of Indians ; a wide spread age group, social backgrounds and proffesional pursuits. One of the best times I had in a while. Nonetheless, on my way back home I heard a disinct "thud" apparently from the trunk of the car. I thought it could be from the speaker so cut off the volume and then a distinct "Thud...thud thud...Thud" and it didn't seem to be external. A chill went down my spine, I was petrfied and contemplating pulling over, or driving to a police station, a public spot... But I let it sink in, and thn heard another " thud ... Thud ... Thud" ... Was I making thse up in my head or what. Then for th nxt 5 odd miles there was no sound. My mind running around in several directions to male sense of it. Could it b my engine misfiring / dirt in the gas.. Since it was on E and that's when dirt gets pulled in to the combustion chamber. Could it be the fireworks and for some reason I percived the sound to be too close than it was. could it be that someone was thrown off a vehicle and manage to cling and get hooked on to my car... A spirit of some sorts on that portion of the highway .....??? Nonetheless I drove not stopping , till I got to the gas station close to home. Boy I was questioning my sensibility. 8 odd mins later I pull up to fill gas and walk away from the trunk and open it. "Nothing" .... "Empty". Next morning I have to drive to Vegas and forget about it. Tonight as I pull in to my parking spot, there is a big black thing in the center, I stop, step out to get a closer look. It's the complete hair set ... Like someone's scalp was ripped off... Immediately my mind recollects the stupid possibility of a spirit... A spirit that could be responsible for the thuds ... Well close inspection shows it's a wig, the price tag visible and for the sake of my dark fears .. No blood. Further, the spot is right under the balcony of the appartment that does have a lot of wild parties going on pretty often. Could be one o them. It's just too coincidental though. Or I am just in need of a break, a good rejuvinating break full of thrill and adventure. Well close inspection of the hair no blood nothing just fake long black hair with a visible price tag.
Apparition
Today was a normal day @ work, hectic and busy, though not as productive as I would have wanted it to be.
Took off to the gym late late eve for a short run on the treadmill.
Walk in, and there's a sheet of white A4 on its face, its screen. Temporarily Out of Order, repair technician has been called for.
Nonetheless I fiddle with it, and realize the speed up button is jacked up.
So I hope onto the eleiptical for a quick 15 min, and as I near the end, I see someone with their back to the window talking to someone in front of them. A guy in a black tee with thin arms talking to a girl.
When I walk out, I am stunned, there's no ledge for anyone to stand at the location where I saw these two or cnjured the image of these two.
The walk back to the apartment, a lil wweird, as I heard footsteps around, or jsut in my head I am not sure.
Very odd. Hope to meet them someday :-)
Apparition
Today was a normal day @ work, hectic and busy, though not as productive as I would have wanted it to be.
Took off to the gym late late eve for a short run on the treadmill.
Walk in, and there's a sheet of white A4 on its face, its screen. Temporarily Out of Order, repair technician has been called for.
Nonetheless I fiddle with it, and realize the speed up button is jacked up.
So I hope onto the eleiptical for a quick 15 min, and as I near the end, I see someone with their back to the window talking to someone in front of them. A guy in a black tee with thin arms talking to a girl.
When I walk out, I am stunned, there's no ledge for anyone to stand at the location where I saw these two or cnjured the image of these two.
The walk back to the apartment, a lil wweird, as I heard footsteps around, or jsut in my head I am not sure.
Very odd. Hope to meet them someday :-)
Apparition
Today was a normal day @ work, hectic and busy, though not as productive as I would have wanted it to be.
Took off to the gym late late eve for a short run on the treadmill.
Walk in, and there's a sheet of white A4 on its face, its screen. Temporarily Out of Order, repair technician has been called for.
Nonetheless I fiddle with it, and realize the speed up button is jacked up.
So I hope onto the eleiptical for a quick 15 min, and as I near the end, I see someone with their back to the window talking to someone in front of them. A guy in a black tee with thin arms talking to a girl.
When I walk out, I am stunned, there's no ledge for anyone to stand at the location where I saw these two or cnjured the image of these two.
The walk back to the apartment, a lil wweird, as I heard footsteps around, or jsut in my head I am not sure.
Very odd. Hope to meet them someday :-)
Smoking is hazardous to your health
Last few weeks I experimented with snus, the permeable tissue packed tobacco. It was not a good feeling keeping it in the mouth, but the effect was pretty good. The released nicotine did not make me gassy (as much) as the gum, and it sure kept the urges to smoke away. Net result - great. Nonetheless the urge to smoke was pretty high after some alcohol, so there were two choices, be teetotaler or just excercise more control than I have in a long long time. After all most of all boooks I rad on reengineerung the self/ finding the true self mention self control as an essential tool in many paths. Well so today. Yet again decide to put an end to the smoking habit for good. How different is today from any other, well would attribute it to seris of events of 2010. I have over and over again interracted with people from my past or people who are reminiscent of a past self I had disconnected from. So many simple joys I had disconnectd from, responsibilities I have shyer away from and still do shadow off for some apparent deep seeded view point which needs a revisit. That's all for now, think I should go for a ride and get some of the sun before it goes down.
Outdoors
Today I managed to get out and engage in serious outdoor activity after months. Soccer for a good two hours, and boy do I feel it all over. Especially my neck coz I have to place it st on the pillow, any tilt just accerbates the general body ache to a pain. But internally I feel so good inside. Encouraged me to lookup rec events from the park and rec dept o the city. Besides taxes are still pending and am enjoying reading shiv khera and David Allen. Something to refocus and get a grip back on life. Too much has been going on at work, leading to a general state o chaos. ...sleeepy
Freshened and livlier
Wow been 6 months sicne I saw my sign of relief.
Relief has been blissful, so realistic and so calm and so smooth, I sometimes wonder why this wasnt the case 5 years ago, life ould have changed another way so much earlier and ........(begin to day dream) :--)
Nonetheless, the existential experince of beggining it all again, all alone, forming new bonds, new aquaintances, new activities, a new weather a new landscape and notto mention a gargantualan rent :-)... uniuqely a new rollercoaster, and I a still awaiting the first loop to end. THe butterflies sometimes full of joy, sometimes fear, but mostly exhilarating overall.
Yesterday I rode my bike around LB, all noon and part of the eve, a total of ~25 miles. Boy and then did I pig out, the last couple o miles I walked to the nearest in n out to munch on a double cheeseburger. :-)))) Yeah ..double ...;-) well deserved though... hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm....
Well been reading good old Bernard Shaw these days and I find the senarios the acts so apart from todays life when considered in isolation, but totally each chapter, each act just makes so muh sense till date. Beautiful prose, intellectual, thought provoking and definitely entertaining.
One of the big changes I have now is, "Paan" yeah.... I am back to enjoying the wonderful creatin if not less, atleast once a week. Bissful..yeah..............:-)
